On June 13th 2010 I gave birth to our beautiful vibrant daughter Avery. How do you even put into words the joy and terror being a mother is.
On July 19th 2004 Judi Lynne Dyer died. Gone. Never to mother me again. She was 55, she was a diabetic and supremely unhealthy. I loved her, I miss her and I need her still.
Everyone tells me how much I remind them of her. I have heard gasps as I enter the room full of her friends, I am the walking mirror of my mother.
What scares me is she died at 55. How much am I really like my mom?
When I held my daughter and felt the love of my life over my shoulder looking at me and loving me, loving Avery, I knew I needed to live. For Michael and for Avery but most of all for me. I need to meet Avery's children, I need to hold Michael's had at our daughters wedding. I need to be here, I choose life.
Lets talk about the struggle of getting it right, of choosing to live. You see I am not a born exercise guru, obviously! I love food, all sorts. Well actually all sorts of unhealthy food like, whipping cream and fast food. I love watching movies, sitting on the couch snuggling with Michael and laying in bed reading. I don't like carrots and doing push ups.
This past seven months, I have been working out and trying my hardest to change the way I think about eating and health. It has had massive life changing rewards, I am happier then I have ever been. However is has not come without great challenges. And that is why I decided to start writing and putting my journey towards health freedom out there for all to read. What a better way to stay focused, be vulnerable, be accountable and maybe even help someone else choose life.
So welcome to my journey and thank you for cheering me on!
I'm proud of you Heather!! Being healthy will give you great joy in itself. Knowing that you are taking care of your temple is a very satisfying thing. You will also pass this health conscious attitude to little Avery (which is priceless).
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